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brokemylenses
13 December 2009 @ 04:26 pm
 
 
brokemylenses
17 July 2009 @ 09:55 pm
This is it. The tipping point.

I cant handle it. There is too much on my plate.

Research for 3 ongoing projects. Emergency research, in-depth, large scale research. Due ASAP, due next week, due before you leave but lets have a review on this soon.

Pitches, quick think how should we go about this. Internal review in 10mins time k? I want the deck from the two of you by Friday. Please confirm the orders by this week. Can you contact this company and get some credentials? Can you come up with the content and the calendar for blasting - say for a 6mths timeframe? Sorry to tell you only now, but can you do this part of the presentation, and we are leaving in an hr's time.

Can you please scan this? Oh this is an old mac that takes 30 secs to scan a A4 full colour ah? Oh, got studio ppl using? Hmm, maybe make this 200page doc scans due the day after lor. Could you type out what you see on these pages? I only have the hard copy, but I wld like a soft copy. 

Can you please say whatever that is on your mind? You keep saying it then not saying it. I have no time to try and understand you and this is irritating me. This is the way we work, they are not trained in communications, they dont need to know the planning stuff. This is how agency works, it is a team effort. You can't do everything by yourself.

Don't stare at the computer for too long. Try not to read anything. When you put your eyes drops, try not to blink in reflex, it would only increase the pressure in your eyes. Maybe you would like to wait till you are older to consider lasik? Why do my eyes hurt even when I am rubbing them now? Shouldn't they have healed? 

Chromax 4 times a day. Tiamol 2 times a day for 4 days, then 1 time a day for 4 days, then switch to new medication. 5 mins between diff medicine. 1 hr before and after contact lenses.

Articles are due tomorrow! Please keep pressuring your writers to help out at the matric fair. I know a lot of you guys are not interning, so please pressure them. Sorry I am not in SG now, sorry I am going on exchange, sorry I am back at my country now - WE CANT HELP YOU WRITE YOUR ARTICLES.




Help.
 
 
brokemylenses

Your heart that gently reflects in the puddle
is your tone, as you pass through the maze of everyday

Footsteps of spring
the city starts adding color
The melody flowsLE LU LA LI
Through the colored lenses

ReggaeDubHiphopTechnoLatin
Between the waves of all the different values
JazzRockPops Category no more
Whats the most important thing?

Spinning and turning on the overpass
as we overtake that season
this and that, which color is your melody?
Sometimes you could get confused

ReggaeDubHiphopTechnoLatin
Between the waves of all different values
JazzRockPops Category no more
What are you thinking of now?

If we can embrace all the differences
It will shine the sky in rainbow colors
Your heart that gently reflects in the puddle
is your tone, as you pass through the maze of everyday

You can see it in any color, because of your clear feeling
Dont worry about it, lets just go as we are.
If we can embrace all the differences
The rain will stop, and the sky will shines in rainbow colors

Your heart that gently reflects in the puddle
is your tone, as you pass through the maze of everyday
You can see it in any color, because of your clear feeling
Let your tone shine like the rainbow

Pass through the maze of everyday
And start playing your tone
 
 
brokemylenses
28 June 2009 @ 11:10 am
Updates on my life:

Blah blahblah blahblahblah )

Just wanna take a moment to apologise though - I probably sound short and cold in smses nowadays and if I even go out at all, I am kinda spazzy or just emo sometimes. The main reason is because I am to deal with so much verbal and non verbal communication the whole day at work (and I think I keep getting it wrong) that I just shut down and stop doing it when I can let my guard down.

Erm, i cant say it face to face, or even over sms but sorry to people who have been receiving wierdly formed smses from me...


Onto other news. If you are:
 
1. Female,
2. 20-30 years old,


please help me with a short survey at

http://moodboardtesting.blogspot.com/

You will need to be logged in to WP or LJ if you are using them to leave comments, but a Google account would be way easier. Many thanks in advance if you have done so or are going to! :)

Have a great week ahead people, those going shopping overseas, have a safe trip! <3 
 
 
brokemylenses
30 May 2009 @ 02:22 pm
Look, me and her - we are a team. We left not because there is shopping to be done. GSS not even started yet lor. We left because we are obviously just there to fill up the numbers so that you guys can post on your blogs something like "We had a class outing today. __ people turned up, wow!"  Really, if we could feel even less welcomed, we would be like the local workers at coffee shop. Needed to hit the quota but not actually wanted.



Thank you for the look of surprise :) Dragging my friend about City Hall and Clarke quay frantically and eating dinner 7 hours after my last meal beside a bunch of smokers is almost worth it. Erm sorry about the flower delivery service.



I had fun taking crazy photos on the bridge, eating Subway by a fountain, and admiring the "dancers" in the audience with you yesterday. Thank you for everything, I shall try to be better at directions next time? 



The conclusion should have been obvious. There were people waiting for you at the ground floor, quietly, patiently. I am really bad with dealing with the "not playing the performance thing" very sorry I couldnt hang around.



Dear, we should be tougher and not let ourselves be bullied. Thanks for teaching and sharing with me your insights, next time we go for coffee on our own terms k :)
 
 
 
brokemylenses
22 April 2009 @ 12:47 pm


http://madein2208.wordpress.com/

It is a damn long semester. And it is far from over still.

Ahhh. This is interesting.






 
 
brokemylenses
18 April 2009 @ 12:08 am

 </lj-embed>
Never seen a bluer sky
Yeah I can feel it reaching out
and moving closer
There's something 'bout blue

Asked myself what it's all for
You know the funny thing about it
I couldn't answer
No, I couldn't answer

Things have turned a deeper shade of blue
and images that might be real
may be illusion
Keep flashing off and on

Free...
Wanna be free, Gonna be free
and move among the stars
You know they really aren't so far

Feels so free...
Gotta know free... Please...
Don't wake me from the dream
It's really everything it seemed

I'm so free...
No black and white in the blue

Everything is clearer now
Life is just a dream, you know
that's never ending
I'm ascending



Happiness is just a word to me
And it might have meant a thing or two
If I'd known the difference

Emptiness, a lonely parody
And my life, another smokin' gun
A sign of my indifference

Always keepin' safe inside
Where no one ever had a chance
To penetrate a break in

Let me tell you some have tried
But I would slam the door so tight
That they could never get in

Kept my cool under lock and key
And I never shed a tear
Another sign of my condidtion

Fear of love or bitter vanity
That kept me on the run
The main events at my confession

I kept a chain upon my door
That would shake the shame of Cain
Into a blind submission

The burning ghost without a name
Was calling all the same
But I wouldn't listen

The longer I'd stall
The further I'd crawl
The further I'd crawl
The harder I'd fall
I was crawlin' into the fire

The more that I saw
The further I'd fall
The further I'd fall
The lower I'd crawl
I kept fallin' into the fire
Into the fire
Into the fire

Suddenly it occurred to me
The reason for the run and hide
Had totaled my existnce

Everything left on the other side
Could never be much worse that this
But could I go the distance

I faced the door and all my shame
Tearin' off each piece of chain
Until they all were broken

But no matter how I tried
The other side was licked so tight
That door it wouldn't open

Gave it all that I got
And started to knock
Shouted for someone
To open the lock
I just gotta get through the door

And the more that I knocked
The hotter I got
The hotter I got
The harder I'd knock
I just gotta break through the door

Gotta knock a little harder
Gotta knock a little harder
Gotta knock a little harder
Break through the door

 

 
 
brokemylenses
15 March 2009 @ 01:14 pm
OH MY FREAKING GOD.

Joe Hisaishi is the composer for Departures' movie soundtracks.


I wanted to watch this.
 
I desperately want to watch this now.
 
 
brokemylenses
14 March 2009 @ 05:35 pm
 
 
brokemylenses
05 March 2009 @ 12:57 pm
That was what my mum had to remind me after one of my excessively long rants about school, and how it is generating too much news that I need to rant about my CCA now too.

She said it as a personal example of how it motivates her and keeps her from arguing from her colleagues. Which was interesting and sad, because my mum has been doing the tolerating thing for a huge part of her life.

Me, I am not really like that. Sure I think about being professional, being able to handle everything my lectueres, project mates and editor and writers throw at me. But I don't think I am good at maintaining a clear line between work and play. Or work conflicts and personal conflict. Even if I dont take things personally, I get upset about how life is screwed up for me.

Since I am living this life, I figure if I want to complain about it, I damn well can.
(Well, I have to fix it anyway what, release stress first cannot meh?)

That said, none of the work I have been doing is remotely satisfying these days. Probably except for my 2208 design assignments. Otherwise, everything else in school currently seems like major obstructions preventing me from doing what I would enjoy.

But really, these are important things nonetheless. I am sure I would regret it or be disappointed in myself if I don't attempt and complete them to the best of my ability. These are probably really shallow examples, but if it keeps me fighting, I am not gonna fix it.

People like Shige, Yamapi, Sho - they inspire me to keep up. The mechanics of being able to juggle demands of their jobs, and getting a degree at the same time boggles me.

I suppose having a lot of money and fame are good motivations (but perhaps they dont need that) and having a manager who organises everythg helps too. Which means that if I can live life organized and juggle school work and cca, I would be half as good as them, wouldn't I?

Without pretty hair, skin and clothes though. And definitely, without the money. But yeah, who needs those stuff anyway right?

Another group of people - people already in the industry I want to work in.
These people whose work appear everywhere I look. I want to get there too.

-- Okay, I am gonna interrupt myself and cut this self-peptalk short. Reality is interferring.

Last thing - I have been very bitchy about a lot of things these days. Mum and Dad probably bore the brunt of my foul temper, but I owe MX loads for being a wonderful support (if you are reading this, thank you) and Jason too, for his (grudging, I suppose) intervention and help too.

RESUME. It is that damn piece of paper that I am selling my soul to the devil for.



Actually, I will sell my soul to the devil too if I can play and complete TC in one try.
 
 
brokemylenses
Healthy breakfast - Oat soyamilk + guava
Getting a challenging 2208 assignment
Exchanging greetings with a fellow classmate

Lunch with VK
Arashi + Skip Beat 19 @ YT
Finally updated my 2208 blog with Assignment 1
Watching Time Crisis 4 vids @ YT ( I WILL GET THROUGH STAGE 2 AREA 3!!!)

MX's failed attempt to catch her bus lol
Getting a "Welcome! :) " when I thanked an Andss girl while getting off the bus
Getting a "Byebye :)" fromy neighbour when I left the lift
Mum nagging me to have some dinner before taking my medicine


I had meant to write about this sometime back.

One morning, when I went up to the upper deck of a bus after seeing someone coming down from it, I reached the top of the stairs to see the entire deck filled. Save for that one seat the person vacated - which I could not spot. Just when I was about to make my way down the aisle, I passed a guy who stuck up his thumb and jabbed in a direction over his shoulder.

He was trying to tell me where the seat was. Muttering a "thanks," I had hurriedly made my way towards the seat as the bus lurched while pulling out of the busstop.

But I wished I had done more.  I am not sure what else could I have done, but I really wished, as I sat down in my seat, that I could have thanked him more loudly, smiled a little when I had done so. Just so I could share with that person the surge of, for lack of a better description, renewed faith in strangers, that I had felt.

And that same afternoon, when I was on my way home from NTUC, I experienced the same kindness from strangers again. I was standing near the exit, with my bag of groccery, across the seats reserved for the elderly. This auntie who was sitting in it shifted herself into the seat beside the wall and beckoned to me sit beside her, while gesturing to my grocceries. I thanked her after explaining that I would be alighting in 3 more stops.


Sometimes I wonder how much of a cynic, or a distrustful human I am, to have so little faith in strangers. So much so that when someone performs an considerate act, a kind act, a generous act, it is enough to send me into a state of near shock and pleasant surprise.
 
 
brokemylenses
19 February 2009 @ 02:02 pm

I have been doing a lot of health related things recently. Going with my mum to see a specialist for her gastric pain, getting a blood test for myself. I think it is an appropriate time to think about my health and my family's health, and to pay more attention to these things.

My mum has been having gastric pain regularly for years. However, the most major step she has taken to curing it would be to see a doctor at a clinic, and that is only when the pain is unbearable and is affecting her work.

Recently, she finally went and had a proper check up, which involved having a camera tube inserted through her mouth and into her intestines while under anesthesia. Anyway, the prognosis is alright. Now it is making sure she remembers to take her medication for the infection in her intestine.

It is a relief to know that she is recovering. Because seeing your mum being in pain so often and not knowing what is wrong is really terrifying to a child. 

I am sure that, in the eyes of their parents, seeing their child sick or in pain hurts too. (So to all those out there who are not eating, EAT. And if you are eating, eat more healthily please? :) )

As for myself, I got my blood test report back ( yet I still dont know my blood type.) But one thing which caught my attention is that my LDL cholesterol level (bad cholesterol) is slightly higher than normal.

On the other hand, my HDL (good cholesterol) level is nearly twice the minimum level. Still, it made me paranoid, so now I am on a mission to reduce my LDL .

I wanted to ramble on about a healthy diet but I figure that I am in no position to do so, since I am a little flabby, don't exercise that regularly, and has a slightly high cholesterol level haha. But I am gonna work hard at becoming healthier, so if anyone wants to go and check out salad bars or organic food restaurants, let me know yeah? :)

And if you want to exercise (by playing TC - you know who you are lol) or eat healthily (by eating sushi), ahahah, I am a sms away :D

 
 
brokemylenses
17 February 2009 @ 11:08 pm
The past few weeks have been rather irregular and packed.

I have been spending the chunk of my days doing the typical school stuff, in between hush hush preparations for a birthday surprise that ended in a pretty spectacular espionage scene at Jurong Point. I also dropped by the arcade a handful of times, which may account for the improvments in accuracy (52.1%!!!).

All of which I enjoyed a lot. Then there is also accompanying my mum to see the doctor (like FINALLY) and getting stuck in traffic jams 3 times a week, cursing my pathetic Illustrator skills, mildly celebrating V day with project mates, dropping my jaw at KT's One Drop PV ( they rented 6 limos for the shoot WTH - what abt spending more money on NEWS and Kanjani 8's PVs?!)

So yeah, BUSY = no library trips, no coffee trips, no lavish sushi or pasta dinners

:((

I was preparing for school just now when I was struck by a huge bout library-withdrawl-emo-ness. I was thinking how I would love to sit in the library and read lifestyle and design magazines all day long.

Daydream and ogle at the pretty houses, lofts, apartments - all beautifully photographed.
Read about the newest design festivals, up and coming designers, the newest trends from different countries.
Check out new recipes, advice for careers, travel destinations.

Weave through the words that lead me into a world where - for a brief moment - all that consume me are my dreams. Of spending my life, of dedicating it to producing works that can make such a huge impact on the world too.

And then I would be stepping out of the library with an armful of magazines and books which I will eventually sneak peeks at in between readings and lecture notes.

But I suppose that is the thing about dreams. You will need to pull your heads out of the clouds to make your way to where you want to be :)


So anyway, I may be more active over at: 
madein2208.wordpress.com 
 
That would be an online portfolio / learning journal for my 2208 Principles of Visual Design course.

Or I would be here too:
twitter.com/iwantcoffee

Apparently the lecturer asked us to sign up just to make a point about online networks and microblogging for her lecture. But since no one knew that when we were told to do so, so I did. So probably I will update it till the novelty wears off.

So yeah, HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY, JAS AND YJ!! XD


As for everyone else, Happy February! I am counting down to Recess week and I hope to survive the midterms.
 
 
brokemylenses
20 January 2009 @ 11:31 am
Ah. Just checked my balloting resutls.

Didnt get everything I want. Sian.
 
 
brokemylenses
20 January 2009 @ 11:18 am

I am liking my furnished table more and more now.

I am believing that with my newly organised table I can accomplish anything school throws at me!

Mwahahaha.




 

 
 
brokemylenses
16 January 2009 @ 10:43 pm
Wow, my mum is really on a renovating spree.

First, we got our walls and ceiling repainted. DIY.

Then a new chair and reshuffling of furniture.

Then a new gigantic cabinet for books and stuff.

And then I came home today to a new front gate. I still am not used to it.



Wow. Quite nice actually. Now, just need to get my desk furniture and I think I will be contented.

I am craving for nice waffles for breakfast and a Korean lunch.
 
 
brokemylenses
13 January 2009 @ 11:52 am
Yesterday was a very bad day.

I had thought that there was tutorial balloting - but no, it only starts next week.
I thought I can only bid for MNO in Round 3 - but I can actually do that in Round 2C. And the bid points required were within my means too.

Then I went to school to discover that now, 151 can be so packed (even at where 74 and 151 routes first overlap) that the bus goes by wihtout stopping. So I was late, and am regretting my choice of modules that are making me to go to school at 10am/12pm.

And just when I was comparing my timetables with my proj mates for 2 sems, I discovered that I had somehow screwed up and got the timeslots wrong. It was really quite a bad blow to me because, coming after all the string of events, I just feel like I should have been better prepared, both physically and mentally for school.

In the end, I redid my timetable on the spot, (making more mistakes along the way). Special thanks to SH and Gene, for being kind and patient with me. I am very glad that I am taking mods with them again as they have been awesome proj mates.

This sem started out on the wrong foot, plus a few slips and tumbles along the way. I hope this means that I have used up some bad luck meant for this sem. (So maybe I can find good proj mates for 2202. Pretty please?)

But the day ended not too badly. I did get my timetable figured out, made lunch/gym date with VK, saw Paul and am looking at opportunities to learn dance and driving. And mum helped ended the futile battle I was having with a flying cockroach in my room.

And tomorrow is yet another day.
 
 
brokemylenses
12 January 2009 @ 12:26 am
FUCK  
I KNEW IT.

On top of my news story being uncompleted still, I knew there was something that I had forgot to do before school starts tomorrow.

I was right and wrong.


I had indeed forgotten something important. But it was not just one thing. There were two things.

Planning for tutorial balloting. (IT IS BLOODY TOMORROW.)
And that there are two lects instead of one (which was what I had orginally thought.)


Shit lar.
Sleep late, wake early.
 
 
brokemylenses
Went to school to conduct an interview.

The whole thing went by plesantly, and for that I was thankful.
I even felt that my job isn't that bad and that I can handle one more semester of news reporting. But I suspect the reason i am liking it better now is because I now have news editing as a comparision.
One more interview before I can write things up properly.

Went to the school gym with MX for the first time after the interview.

It was less crowded during the late noon-early evening time slot. But it got progressively fuller to about 70% capacity I think.
The bike caught my attention, think I would be using it everytime I am there. I will be avoiding the weights though. I was wierded out by all that unintentional and sometimes accidental eye to eye contact that I made. But no sun + air con + exercies = win-win-win activity!

Walked around in MacRitchie yesterday with yj. It wasnt too sunny in the early morn, saw monkeys, and I love wooden bridges and walking platforms. If I am attempting this again, I would insist to have a picnic there. Scenery is awesome :) And people who blast music in forests should be strapped to a giant ball of rock and rolled down from the hill.

The combination of 2 days of physical exertion meant that I wasn;t very inclined to go for s6aye outing by 4pm on Sat. I was falling asleep having my late lunch and the evening sun was quite off-putting too. Err yeah.

Anyway, I will get to mahjong before sch starts if I am lucky. Tea and dinner with my fav s6aye girls on Wed if things work out. And hopefully free food and gifts over the weekend. Again if I am lucky.

But really if I cant have them all, I hope all these good "luck" or "qi" or "positive energy" gets channeled into my bidding and balloting.
 
 
 
 

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